Feeling totally all over the place...again.
Today was a great/bad day at church. with it being Palm Sunday, I had a great time in the time i got to spend in the service and really got a lot out of what i was a part of. FINALLY. my relationship with God is far from good. i mean it's gooood...but it's not great. this is something that i really need to work on and luckily one of my friends is going through the same thing. thank goodness i don't have to do this alone because i'm kind of freaking out.
my boyfriend, bless his little cotton socks, is the best thing ever but i don't think he gets the whole God thing and how important it is to me. he comes to church every Sunday with me and my family which i greatly appreciate, but i feel like he's there because i forced him to. i did NOT by any means intentionally force him to. i don't feel like i did, but it may be entirely possible that i did something that he interpreted as being that way. and for that, i feel guilty. i'm really looking to work on my relationship with God and get it back on track and on the right path, but i feel like he may be holding me back in a sense. i feel i need to be with someone who feels the same way about God as i do, and i'm worried that he doesn't. i'm hoping to work on this with him and get closer to Him together.
i guess we'll see??
i'm also noticing myself, at times, becoming more distant from my boyfriend. i don't know if it's PMS, or if i'm just getting 'bored' (idk if that's the right word...) TOO MUCH GOING ON.